[ credence doesn't want to leave but he doesn't know what else to do. he loves graves desperately and with his whole being and he says so often - or he did until he got so tired of not hearing it back that he avoids saying it as much to avoid giving himself that twinge of pain each time. even so he does still say it, soft murmurs against his lover's mouth or into his hair or burrowed in his neck. it just hurts too much to say it often.
he's been working internationally more often and he meets another model while doing work in germany. gellert is charming and magnetic and attractive and wants him.
credence doesn't love him. he has no intentions of sleeping with him, either: he's not like that. but gellert tells him that he deserves better, he deserves someone that can express his feelings, he needs to take hold of his own life instead of being a kept boy. (one not worth loving, is the implication behind gellert's words, and credence doesn't even realize that meaning until later.)
still, it's two months afterward, two months of gellert texting him that he should leave graves, that finally sets credence to working on it. he takes a week to prepare, putting a lease in on an apartment, making sure it's furnished, paying his bills two months in advance, and, one day while graves is at work, packing.
he doesn't take anything that graves has paid for: he only packs things that he's bought with his modeling money and packs it all away neatly. he gets everything situated in his new place and then goes back to the penthouse to wait. he's not going to do it over the phone or via text. graves deserves better than that. it's been two years since credence moved in and a year since credence first told graves that he loves him. he sits on the sofa stiff and quiet and he doesn't cry. his key and a card with his new address on it are on the kitchen counter.
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he's been working internationally more often and he meets another model while doing work in germany. gellert is charming and magnetic and attractive and wants him.
credence doesn't love him. he has no intentions of sleeping with him, either: he's not like that. but gellert tells him that he deserves better, he deserves someone that can express his feelings, he needs to take hold of his own life instead of being a kept boy. (one not worth loving, is the implication behind gellert's words, and credence doesn't even realize that meaning until later.)
still, it's two months afterward, two months of gellert texting him that he should leave graves, that finally sets credence to working on it. he takes a week to prepare, putting a lease in on an apartment, making sure it's furnished, paying his bills two months in advance, and, one day while graves is at work, packing.
he doesn't take anything that graves has paid for: he only packs things that he's bought with his modeling money and packs it all away neatly. he gets everything situated in his new place and then goes back to the penthouse to wait. he's not going to do it over the phone or via text. graves deserves better than that. it's been two years since credence moved in and a year since credence first told graves that he loves him. he sits on the sofa stiff and quiet and he doesn't cry. his key and a card with his new address on it are on the kitchen counter.
he doesn't know how he's going to say it. ]